I GOT A JOB!

A year ago, I put up a post called 'Anxiety and Jobs' (http://jodderss.blogspot.com/2016/02/anxiety-and-jobs.html). In that post, I mentioned how getting a job was a terrifying thing to me and I just didn't know if I would be able to handle it.

FIREWORKS WITH FRIENDS!

So I met up with some friends last Thursday (yay I decided to have a social life for once), and as a last minute decision, we decided to go to see some fireworks being as it was going to be Bonfire Night on the Saturday. Despite the fact that it had been raining and that I was freezing (I couldn't feel my feet...fabulous), I still managed to have a good night even though my anxiety was trying to take over.

I WENT OUT AND SOCIALISED WITH FRIENDS FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2 MONTHS!

On Saturday (22nd October 2016), I managed to leave the house and meet up with friends at our local Spoons (also known as Wetherspoons). Now you are probably thinking "Why is she making a big deal out of this?"...which is completely understandable as it probably seems a bit weird that I'm celebrating the fact I left the house to see friends...but it is a big deal to me.

WORLD MENTAL HEALTH DAY!

So today (10th October) is world mental health day. If you've read some of my other posts then you will know that I have been open with the fact that I have anxiety.

Let's try and ignore the fact that I am such a fail for not posting on my blog for a few months...oops. I would love to say that the reason I haven't blogged in a while is because I live such a busy, social and happy life that I just don't have time to blog...but that's not the case at all. My mental health hasn't been in a great place recently and because of this, I've just really found it difficult to motivate myself to do anything.

WALKING WALKING WALKING!

I know it's hard to believe but we actually had nice weather in England the other week (I know, I am just as shocked as you are). 

When the weather gets warmer, I tend to feel more motivated. Especially when it comes to leaving the house. Unfortunately, I haven't been feeling the best for the past month so I've had no motivation for anything which has sucked. I actually planned to write this post a couple of weeks ago but I haven't been in the right mind set for it because of my anxiety and other crap. 

THINGS THAT GET ME THROUGH MY BAD DAYS!

One thing that I always remember that my doctor told me about my anxiety is that I would have bad days but I would also have good days. When I have bad days, I just want to hideaway from everything and everyone. I'm that person that never turns to people if I'm feeling down because I struggle to do so. But I always want people to feel like they can turn to me if they aren't feeling great themselves.

During my bad days. I will either feel really anxious or just really down to the point where my head is in overdrive with negative thoughts...bad days tend to hit me really hard. To get me through days like this, I do have things I can turn to that just help make the day a little easier to get through.

ANXIETY AND JOBS!

Everyone around me seems to have their lives sorted out. They either have a job or they are at uni. Me on the other hand, I have nothing other than a dull life. I spend my days wishing that I had the confidence and the motivation to do things that everyone else manages to do but I struggle with.

While getting a job to some people is 'exciting' and an 'easy' thing to do, for me it's a terrifying thing. If you were to hold me over the edge of a very tall building, I probably would still find getting a job more terrifying than that. Obviously it's normal for people to get those 'job nerves' but for me, it's a lot more than just 'nerves'.