Jodders: I WENT OUT AND SOCIALISED WITH FRIENDS FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2 MONTHS!

On Saturday (22nd October 2016), I managed to leave the house and meet up with friends at our local Spoons (also known as Wetherspoons). Now you are probably thinking "Why is she making a big deal out of this?"...which is completely understandable as it probably seems a bit weird that I'm celebrating the fact I left the house to see friends...but it is a big deal to me.

If you've read previous posts on my blog then you will know that I have anxiety and I've let it take over my life. Recently, my mental health hasn't been in a great place...in fact, it's in the worst place it has ever been. One of the many things that has been affected by this is my social life. I've been to scared to meet up friends because at the moment, I am not the bubbly Jodie that makes crap jokes, is full of sarcasm, laughs at pretty much everything and can be quite loud with my annoying West Midlands accent (I actually feel sorry for anybody that has to listen to me speak). I'm scared that I'm going to be the anxious mess that I am around them and make everything negative.

So in the very early hours of Friday morning, I had a (drunk) text come through off one of my best friends saying how we need (in her words) a 'reunuoon' (reunion for those of you who don't understand drunk typos) and invited me out Saturday night. Despite the dark part of my head telling me no, the lighter side (or should I say the 'little bit of normality I have left' side) basically said a massive f**k you to the dark side and I agreed to it.

So for the first time in 2 months, I actually managed to pull myself together for one night and meet up with friends for a few drinks and you know what...I had a really good night. Obviously I still didn't feel like myself that much and I was paranoid that I was being too quiet and no fun...but I didn't let my anxiety take over. Not forgetting that this was the first time I went on a night out (even though we didn't go to a club...we just stayed in spoons till 1 in the morning) since February this year. So for me, this is a big deal. It is a big deal that I managed to stand up to my anxiety for once and say "F**k you, I'm going to have fun with my friends"

Plus my makeup was on point and that's all that matters...and my friends looked beautiful AF.