2017 SO FAR!

Oh hi. It's me. It's been a while. Awkward. I apologise.

Life has been a bit crazy recently so I thought why not do a blog post reflecting on 2017 so far being as we are half way through it (I have no idea where the time has gone but here we are in June).

I AM 21!

Hi. It's been a while. I am sorry. But it's okay. Here I am with a new post (yay buzzing).

So yeah the title says it all. I am now 21 (*sings* and it's all downhill from heeeerrrrreeee). But yes, it was my birthday yesterday (Tuesday 11th April) so I thought I would do a post about it because why not?! And I've also really missed my blog this past month since I got this job. I'm hoping to do a post about coping with anxiety and having a job soon as well because spoiler alert...it's pretty difficult.

I GOT A JOB!

A year ago, I put up a post called 'Anxiety and Jobs' (http://jodderss.blogspot.com/2016/02/anxiety-and-jobs.html). In that post, I mentioned how getting a job was a terrifying thing to me and I just didn't know if I would be able to handle it.

2016 ALBUM FAVOURITES!

At the start of last year, I did a post about my favourite albums from 2015 (which you can check out here if you would like to - http://jodderss.blogspot.com/2016/01/favourite-albums-during-2015.html). So because it is now 2017, I thought I would do the same again but obviously with albums that I was loving last year.

Little Mix - Glory Days

I'm not someone who follows Little Mix or keeps up with everything they do but I do love their music. I loved Get Weird and it has been album that I have listened to a lot last year but I wanted to add Glory Days into this post instead. I listened to Glory Days on Spotify as soon as it came out and I'll be honest, I didn't know what to think of it when I first listened to it. The only song that I genuinely like straight away was Power. As I've continued to listen to the album, I've fallen in love with it. Power is still one of my favourites as well as Nobody Like You, Nothing Else Matter, Beep Beep and F.U.

GOODBYE 2016!

2016 is finally over and I'm sure many people, including myself, feel so relieved that it is now 2017. Let's be honest, Kylie Jenner was right when she said that 2016 was going to be the year of realising stuff.

CHRISTMAS MOVIE FAVOURITES!

Being as I did a 'Christmas Music Favourites' (which you can check out here if you would like to - http://jodderss.blogspot.com/2016/12/christmas-music-favourites.html), I thought it would only be fair (obviously) to do a 'Christmas Movie Favourites'. I feel like Christmas songs and Christmas films are really important at this time of year...you're lying to yourself if you don't agree ;)

I'm not really a fan of sad Christmas films (except Jack Frost...that's the only acceptable sad Christmas film...it is my fave, I cry every time) so expect this list to be full of nostalgia and happiness (once again...except Jack Frost...that's just a mixture of nostalgia, happiness, sadness, feels, sad tears, happy tears, tears, tears, tears!)

CHRISTMAS MUSIC FAVOURITES!

My favourite thing about this time of year is definitely listening to Christmas music. I don't really like to listen to Christmas music throughout the year (except for Michael Bublé's version of Christmas (Baby Please Come Home) because lets be honest...it's a banger) as it just doesn't feel as special. I'll be honest though, this year I have genuinely struggled to stop myself from listening to Christmas songs but now it's officially okay.

So obviously, I am going to do a music favourites...Christmas edition.

IT'S DECEMBER!

IT'S CHRIIIIIISSSSSTMAAAAASSSSS...okay well not yet but I feel like I can now do all things Christmas without being judged! (I started to listen to Christmas songs a few weeks ago and I genuinely didn't care about being judged...it's never to early for a bit of Bublé)

Being as it is now technically Christmas time, I am planning to do Christmas based posts (I hope to anyway). I won't be doing Blogmas because I am not awesome enough but I have got some posts planned. Let's just hope I manage to pull myself together and actually do them.

FIREWORKS WITH FRIENDS!

So I met up with some friends last Thursday (yay I decided to have a social life for once), and as a last minute decision, we decided to go to see some fireworks being as it was going to be Bonfire Night on the Saturday. Despite the fact that it had been raining and that I was freezing (I couldn't feel my feet...fabulous), I still managed to have a good night even though my anxiety was trying to take over.

I WENT OUT AND SOCIALISED WITH FRIENDS FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2 MONTHS!

On Saturday (22nd October 2016), I managed to leave the house and meet up with friends at our local Spoons (also known as Wetherspoons). Now you are probably thinking "Why is she making a big deal out of this?"...which is completely understandable as it probably seems a bit weird that I'm celebrating the fact I left the house to see friends...but it is a big deal to me.

WORLD MENTAL HEALTH DAY!

So today (10th October) is world mental health day. If you've read some of my other posts then you will know that I have been open with the fact that I have anxiety.

Let's try and ignore the fact that I am such a fail for not posting on my blog for a few months...oops. I would love to say that the reason I haven't blogged in a while is because I live such a busy, social and happy life that I just don't have time to blog...but that's not the case at all. My mental health hasn't been in a great place recently and because of this, I've just really found it difficult to motivate myself to do anything.

WEDDING OUTFIT AND MAKEUP!

I get to say that in the space of 2 years, I have seen my parents and my grandparents get married. I am so lucky that I have been able to witness both weddings. It was a small wedding with just family and we went for an Indian after...it was a lovely day :)

So I thought I would do just a small post on my outfit for the wedding and my makeup.

EVERYDAY MAKEUP!

Before I start this, I just want to say that I am not a makeup artist. I'm still learning how to apply makeup properly (especially eye makeup) so please don't judge me at how awful I am ;)

I also want to say that I've decided to do something a little bit different today. Instead of just writing down step by step of my makeup routine, I decided to film it as well in case there were people who would rather watch instead of read :) This isn't me becoming a youtuber, this is just for the purpose of the blog and to make things a little easier. I may do more things like this in the future if any of you actually like it so please feel free to let me know :)

Okay...onto the post (finally).

So I have decided to do a post about my everyday makeup routine. I pretty much wear makeup everyday even if I'm not really leaving the house. It's something I enjoy doing and let's be honest, it improves the way I look a little bit ;)

WALKING WALKING WALKING!

I know it's hard to believe but we actually had nice weather in England the other week (I know, I am just as shocked as you are). 

When the weather gets warmer, I tend to feel more motivated. Especially when it comes to leaving the house. Unfortunately, I haven't been feeling the best for the past month so I've had no motivation for anything which has sucked. I actually planned to write this post a couple of weeks ago but I haven't been in the right mind set for it because of my anxiety and other crap. 

SATURDAY 14TH MAY 2016 - THE DAY ASHTON IRWIN MESSED WITH MY EMOTIONS...AGAIN!

Eurovision was on the other (literally the most important night of all of our lives). Unfortunately, the UK didn't win (not really a surprise) but that doesn't matter because...something better happened.

So there I am, just chilling on my own in the house, sitting in the living room watching Eurovision with a bottle of Kopparberg. I realised that it was actually a month since I went to see 5SOS (take me back) and I actually laughed at the fact a month ago I was at a 5SOS concert and there I am sat watching Eurovision. So I decided to tweet 'A month ago, I was at a 5SOS concert...today I am watching Eurovision...both the same thing really...'

I know I know...I am funny af.

About 5 minutes later, I was on twitter looking at everyone's reaction to Eurovision. The next thing I know, a notification popped up at the bottom saying '@Ashton5SOS retweeted: *my tweet*'

I clicked on it (while I was shaking) and I was like 'bloody hell Ashton don't do this to me again'

*Basically, back in October, Ashton followed and retweeted me and I've only just about recovered from that*

I then noticed that he liked my tweet as well as I screenshotted it.

There's me full on shaking, struggling to breathe and trying not to cry, like I did last time, as my notifications went mental. After that, I struggled to concentrate on watching Eurovision (I wasn't even paying attention to the UK entry...soz Joe and Jake).

So that day, I realised that Ashton can infact see my tweets on his timeline (unless he was looking at the 5SOS indirects)...either way, he can see my tweets and that's quite terrifying. But I hope he found that tweet hilarious because #bants

But yeah...that happened and I'm still not over it...

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BEAUTY FAVOURITES!

Everyone has their favourite beauty products whether it's just one product or every beauty product that you own. Recently there have been a few that I have been loving and I thought I would share them with you.

5SOS - THURSDAY 14TH APRIL 2016!

I think I said in one of my past posts that I didn't have tickets for Sounds Live Feel Live (which is the name for the 5SOS tour for those of you that didn't know). Well as it was my birthday on the 11th April, one of my very good friends bought me some tickets as a present. I can't thank him enough for getting me the tickets!!

So I asked my friend, who I went to see them with last year, to come with me and we, once again, had a really good night! I swear 5SOS never fail to put on a good show.

THINGS THAT GET ME THROUGH MY BAD DAYS!

One thing that I always remember that my doctor told me about my anxiety is that I would have bad days but I would also have good days. When I have bad days, I just want to hideaway from everything and everyone. I'm that person that never turns to people if I'm feeling down because I struggle to do so. But I always want people to feel like they can turn to me if they aren't feeling great themselves.

During my bad days. I will either feel really anxious or just really down to the point where my head is in overdrive with negative thoughts...bad days tend to hit me really hard. To get me through days like this, I do have things I can turn to that just help make the day a little easier to get through.

BEEPING HORNS, WHISTLING AND SHOUTING AT RANDOM PEOPLE IS NOT OKAY!

I want to write this post because I have experienced this a lot...a lot more than I should. I even experienced this last night so I thought I could write about it. 

Basically, why do people feel the need to beep their horns, whistle or shout at random people? This has happened to me so many times and each time it has been a male that has done it! I'm not saying that girls don't do it to guys as I have never experienced it or heard a story about it but if there are girls who do this then they are disgusting...no matter what gender you are, trying to scare, intimidate or make someone uncomfortable for the 'lols' is NOT okay! 

L'ORÉAL PARIS STUDIO LINE WAVE CREATING SPRAY!

You know when you get money and you think you can buy anything even though you probably don't need it? Well that's pretty much what I did with this spray. I bought it thinking that you could spray it onto straightened hair and it will make your hair go wavy...this is the perfect example of buying something without reading what it does. Luckily it was only £1 something so I wasn't too annoyed with myself.